Hurry up, dad!
- Okay, I made it. High five! Yes! - High five!
- Mum, you too, hurry! - Chika!
Chika?
Chika!
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Does this happen often?
It used to happen often,
I was cured after we started dating.
But after you passed away, it started again...
Are you sick?
It's not like there's something wrong with my body, it's more of a mental thing.
I went to the hospital, I'll be fine.
What's it like? Like fainting?
No, I am conscious and I can hear, but...
I can't move my body.
Maybe it's the stress... it's been hard for you with my suicide.
- It's not your fault. - But...
Today was so much fun.
Maybe that's why I got scared.
Suddenly I thought it might end again...
Because of me.
Does that... have anything to do with that call?
You said "it's my fault."
But that's... yes.
It's my fault.
Bye...
I will take a bath too!
Who were you talking to?
Was it your mother?
We haven't seen each other since we got married, right?
I intend to never see my mother again.
- But if you don't meet, things will continue... - Things are fine like this.
It's impossible.
No matter how hard I try, she will never change.
How could she do such a terrible thing to me, a child?
I... really liked your attitude of trying your best
to do what you can, without worrying too much.
But, you may have been the opposite of that.
I wonder if maybe the dark part inside of me
drove you to do that.
Dark part... what's that?
You don't have that.
There's nothing dark inside of you.
There is!
But it's fine.
I want to be a bright person in front of you.
Supporting lives suicide prevention NPO FROG
I am Ikebata, the representative. Please come in.
Sorry for intruding.
- Good morning. - Good morning.
- Please, to the back. - Ah, yes.
You didn't remember the moment you died by suicide, right?
Yeah.
In fact, even among the suicide attempts,
there are quite a few of them that don't know
why they did such a thing.
It is sometimes called "the blank half hour."
The blank half hour...?
Yes.
The last thing you remember was "I want to live"...
Even though I jumped by myself... strange, right?
We often hear from those who have attempted to commit suicide
that they don't really want to die.
The causes of suicide are not simple.
It's akin to jumping out the window to escape
the heat in a room in a building fire.
They really wanted to live if there was other way to escape the heat.
It was the same for me...
Maybe I lost my escape
as I thought I'd be okay till the last moment.
By the end, I didn't want to die.
I jumped off to get rid of the unpleasant self
that may want to do so.
That unpleasant self is only a part of you.
There must be parts of you that don't displease you.
Try and remember your child now.
- My son? - Yes.
Okay, Riku! I'm taking the pic!
Wait... he came, he came this way.
Hurry up, dad!
That's exactly it!
That you just now.
That's also your true self that arises naturally, right?
That's.. right.
We have as many selves as the people we associate with.
Not just unpleasant selves,
The self who is a father, the one that is close to others.
Yes...
In order to live
one has to affirm oneself.
But completely affirming oneself
and loving your whole person, is not an easy feat.
First, you have to find the self that you like.
And when being with him, treasure yourself.
In Japan, suicide is still considered a personal issue.
But actually, that's not all there is to it.
There is also the problem of a society in which people have to push themselves to conform to their surroundings
even if it is hard for them.
I just started up the site, so it's still a bit empty, but I'll get it right in time.
It's nice, all so new.
- Here you have. - Ah, thanks.
Are there also resurrected haters around here?
Yes, there are.
The other day I went to a resurrected curry restaurant.
it had an X mark sprayed on it.
That's awful.
Why so much hate?
I think it's simply because they don't understand it.
When I tried to go back to my old company, I was treated like an obstacle.
So, what did you want to talk about?
I'm trying to think of a way to prevent people to disappear even if they die.
Like a cryopreservation of corpses?
I think it's inevitable
that the body disappears when we die.
But that the person's whole existence disappear...
It's sad.
After my resurrection, I realized
that the people I left behind after my death were thinking about me a lot.
I understand, it was the same for me.
So... even if somebody dies
some part of them would stay in this world.
It is not only memories, but also photos, videos...
ah, and also letters.
True, like you would remember "they always wore this sweater" while checking the net.
Yes, yes.
That kind of thing, when ones dies, it kind of...
gets scattered around.
So, if there is a place where the deceased can be preserved,
we can immediately meet them online,
and if we can communicate through the deceased,
we may be able to ease their grief a little.
An assortment of memories?
As expected of a former canned products maker. Let's make it!
This is something only we, the resurrected, can come up with.
Thank you!
Ah, excuse me.
Hello? What happens, Chika?
Tetsuo! You're alive! Thanks goodness!
What? What happens?
They just said on the news that Mr. Radek went missing...
Some other resurrected have disappeared too...
I will check the news.
Radoslaw Tatarczuk, known as Mr. Radek, a Polish national
who made headlines after his resurrection this year,
who had returned to his country,
was reported missing in Warsaw by his family.
It is believed that it is connected to the disappearance of
other resurrected around the world.
Tetsuo!
Have you been able to contact the representative of the association?
Yeah... But it's fine.
What do you mean "it's fine"?
So.. they are thinking if there is anything they can do to help.
Thinking... what? Will you disappear?
Tetsuo!
Sorry...
I may not be able to protect the promise of staying with you forever...
No... What should we do? Say!
Anyway... we have to do what we have to do.
We may not have much time.
Actually, I didn't see anything...
What?!
I... may disappear...
I don't want to disappear being a liar...
Riku, it's 9 pm already,
so let's go to sleep. Come on, you have kindergarten tomorrow.
Give it back.
Wait... Don't do that, Riku!
You promised you'd go to bed at 9.
- Hurts. - Hey!
Riku, you can't hit mum.
Riku.
You promised mum, right? You have to keep your promises.
You are sleepy, right? Let's go to sleep.
Okay, apologize and...
Did mum say anything wrong?
If you think you are right, explain it in words.
You broke your promise and yet you are hitting her, isn't that ridiculous?
Let me go! I don't wanna!
If you are going to hit somebody, then hit me.
I'll never forget you hitting me.
And you will never forget it either.
Go to bed.
Think about it, and apologize to mum if you think you did wrong.
I believe in you, Riku.
Riku, let's go.
Good night.
What will you tell to Riku if I disappear again?
I don't know.
You will say I died in an accident, right?
Yes.
I think that's fine until he grows up.
A father's way of dying is something that really gets to bother you...
I don't want him to grow up thinking he too will commit suicide one day.
It's fine. I will tell him it was an accident.
But someday...
When the time Riku would be able to accept it comes,
I want to explain it to him with my own words.
I committed suicide.
But I had no intention of leaving Riku and you behind.
I wanted to live.
That was the only thing in my mind.
Maybe I can leave it on video.
Record it in a USB, can it and preserve it....
And when the day comes, I want you to give it to Riku.
Fill in the blanks with this, please.
- Do I start? - Yes, go on.
Clicked it.
Riku, you are 4 right now,
I wonder how old are you when you see this.
You are probably an adult.
I want to talk about how I met your mother,
how we married and how you were born, and how I died.
I wanted to explain you myself.
I want you to know that I cared the most about you and mom.
The first time I met your mother
was at a souvenir shop near the train station....
You fell for me on first sight, right?
No, you confessed with manju.
Are you still saying that?
Then, let's let Riku judge.
Good.
I wanted to buy a souvenir for my family...
You kept circling around the shop...
Would you like a sample?
I called out to you, right?
See? It was you who called for me first.
Because I'm a shop assistant.
Excuse me...
Yeah, so good.
Then, one of each.
Ah, it's a souvenir to bring home.
Ah, I see.
The next day, he came again....
Hello.
I bought this yesterday, but I was hungry and ate it at night...
Yes.
Here, an extra.
Thank you very much.
Your father says I confessed to him with that ume-manju we gave for free to everybody.
You were really smiling big when you said "an extra."
- Excuse me... - Yes?
Would you.... like to have a cup of tea sometime?
Oh...
Yes.
Yes... ah, yes...
Yes...
Some snot came out...
When you were born, I went to the hospital to be present,
but it took quite a while.
Yes, it was very painful.
The nurse told me to push around the hip
and I pushed with a tennis ball or something
but seems it was the wrong place, mum slapped my hand...
Gradually, I began to understand the fun of my job,
and when I got a job in sales, I would work hard because I thought it was my job.
Are you already working?
Work is so much fun, and you may get absorbed by it,
so be careful.
You have to be careful of your own limits.
It was like that for me...
I will talk about that now.
Riku, did you wake up?
Mum, sorry for hitting you.
Well said.
That was great, Riku.
- You did great. - That was good, you said it well.
- You could say it well. - You said it greatly.
- Right? Good boy. - Good boy. Then, a handshake to make up.
- Yeah! - With me too!
Handshake. Handshake. Handshake.
Tetsuo!
Sorry for coming so early in the morning.
I heard the news about the resurrected on the radio yesterday....
But you are fine, right?
As of now, yes.
I'm relieved...
Being able to create the Ishizawa Beer with you,
is my pride in life.
So please don't blame yourself.
Please keep up working as you have done so far.
I really like you.
I like you even more after you came back to life.
Also... I have a favor to ask you.
What? If there's anything I can do, just tell me.
Could you make me one can?
I was thinking that maybe the name of the service could be "neighbor," as the person next to you.
I wanted people to feel the deceased right next to them.
It's really good. What do you think?
- I think it will work. - It's good.
I've already told the staff,
that we don't know when we two will disappear.
So I thought it would be a good idea to sign a contract for your share of this idea.
What? Thank you.
I can take care of such things, huh?
I don't look like it, right?
About the destination of the transfer,
just to be safe, it may be better to put your wife or your son...
Hmm?
Mr. Kinoshita?
You've finished work, right?
Let's go to your parents' house.
You're running out of time?
Let's go with Riku immediately.
If you don't have time, there are other things you should...
Let me do what I can while I'm alive.
So please, call your parents now,
tell them we'll take Riku over today.
Okay? I beg you.
Sorry for the wait.
Let's go, Riku.
Thank you.
- This way, right? - Yes.
I am the impurest kid in the world
Who did this to you? Tell me.
A neighborhood kid?
I did it myself.
Yourself? You wrote that yourself?
That can't be.
It's fine, tell me the truth. I will scold them, okay?
Chika?
Hold this...
- Are you okay? - Yes.
Coming.
Sorry it's been a while. Good evening.
Welcome. Well, come in.
- I hope you like this. - Ah, thanks for bringing it expressly.
Here. Well, come in.
Thank you.
- They got us a souvenir. - Oh, my.
Hello, thank you for this.
Good evening.
Sorry it's been a long time.
Riku, say hello.
Good evening.
You've grown so much.
You don't remember your grandma, right?
I said we didn't need any food.
Sorry...
I made it and waited for you.
Ah, then since you took the trouble, let's eat.
Come on, let's eat.
It's fish.
We don't eat anything unhealthy.
We don't eat meat.
It dirties your stomach.
The inside of the intestines turns black like cigarette smoke.
It's really delicious.
Do you want a refill of rice?
Then, I'll have a bit more.
Thanks for the food.
Excuse me for a moment.
Tetsuo?
What's wrong?
I thought you might have disappeared...
I'm sorry we haven't been able to visit you.
I lost my composure after my resurrection, so it took a while.
Even though you allowed me to marry your precious daughter,
such a thing happened... I am truly sorry.
I have caused Chika a great deal of heartache.
I am sure this was very unpleasant for your two too.
I am truly sorry.
Look up.
You don't have to apologize that much.
We didn't think anything of your suicide either.
I just though "as expected."
It wasn't your fault.
It was her fault.
If you hadn't married her, you wouldn't have committed suicide, right?
You are just a victim.
If you had married somebody else
you would surely be happier by now.
It may be us the ones who have to apologize, as her parents.
I feel responsible.
I'm sorry.
That's wrong, mother-in-law.
That's completely wrong.
It's not Chika's fault. At all.
Chika...
Chika is a virtuous person.
A good person.
Of all the people I've met in my life,
she is the best of them all.
I am glad that I could marry her.
I'm still smitten.
I really like her.
I never even dreamed about being with somebody else.
I have nothing but gratitude for Chika.
And you that raised Chika,
I am thankful to you.
I... I really wanted to let you know that.
Chika is a good person,
the best mother and the best wife.
For me, meeting her
was the happiest thing in my life.
I was happy!
Thank you!
Thanks for the food today.
Hey, hey, let's try to sleep with dad in a sandwich from today on.
- Yeah! - What?
Riku, your father is a bad sleeper, so hold on to him!
- What? Stop! Scary, scary! - Riku, press down!
So heavy! This is not pro-wrestling!
- Riku! - Come on!
Wait, wait! Hold on!
- Hey, let's sleep like this. - Let's do that!
- Will we be able to sleep? - Hold tight!
No!
Can't sleep?
I don't want to die.
I'm scared...
Shit... why did I commit suicide?
If only I could pretend that moment never happened!
I could have slept with you and Riku holding hands every night...
Riku... seemed to have fun with me, right?
But... I will be gone again...
Getting him attached to me...
I even took that video...
Wouldn't it be better if he forgets me...?
You're early. Ah, the bags.
- I'll carry it. - Ah, thank you.
I brought a lot of things, and it got heavy.
Thank you.
You're doing fine.
How can such a big body disappear?
I feel that way too.
- Come in, come in. - Yes.
Chika... I'm sorry.
I wanted to apologize too.
I had to be the one telling you...
I am sorry.
OK!
Mother-in-law, how do you make this miso katsu sauce?
It's really good.
Oh, my! I'm glad. It's really easy.
Just mix miso, sugar, mirin and sake.
Yeah, it's easy. Really easy!
Mom! It's broken!
Oh, no.
Oh dear, it's true, it broke.
Riku is a kind-hearted boy.
It's because he has good parents.
That's right.
The weather is really nice, isn't it?
Being with you like this is like a dream.
Thank you for giving birth to me.
Say it again at my bedside when I die.
All over the world, the resurrected are disappearing.
I am writing this letter because I don't know when I will be gone too.
We all have something dark inside of us.
How should we deal with it?
After I left you, I've been thinking about it.
In fact, one thing became clear to me talking to my wife recently.
Before I died, I had always
assumed that I had fallen in love with my wife's brightness, with her constant smile.
But actually, it wasn't like that.
I was attracted to her because she was trying
to live positively and cheerfully even though she was carrying something dark deep inside.
We were always cheerful.
But I think the reason we felt we should
be together was because we were both lonely.
There is something dark inside my wife as there is inside me.
You are the same, right?
But I am not trying to erase the darkness,
I am trying to protect it.
As long as my life allows.
I'm sure I was resurrected to understand that.
Riku!
I did it! I caught it!
Riku!
Dad!
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